Then last Wednesday, Scarlett was napping and I clicked on a video someone had posted on Facebook. It was a man singing a cover of the song "Let it Go" (from Frozen) in a bunch of different Disney voices. I was getting a kick out of it when I heard Scarlett stirring in her crib. So I paused the video, went to scoop her up out of her crib, and then let her watch the rest of the video with me. I usually don't like her to watch anything on a screen, but made an exception for a short, cute video.
She seemed to be really into it, so after that video was over, I clicked on another one -- the version of the song from the movie. She was absolutely mesmerized.
Throughout the day, I would play the song and we would dance around, and she seemed to be having the time of her life. There was just something about that song.
By the time Saturday rolled around, we had listened to the song approximately 850 times. So I decided I might as well purchase the blu-ray, since it will probably be one of Scarlett's future favorites. And let's be honest, probably mine too. So during naptime on Saturday, I took part in this wonderfulness while Scarlett snoozed:
And oh my goodness, it was so cute! I loved it, and I'm almost 30 years old. I know Scarlett is going to love it even more when she's old enough to really watch it.
And now when Scarlett gets fussy, I see her looking at the TV, just waiting for me to play her favorite song. And I willingly oblige. Her eyes get big and she gasps and dances and even tries to sing along. And I kind of see into our future for a minute. I see all things princesses, pink, dancing, sing-alongs, girly movies, and all the fun things about being a little girl. And sometimes I'm so overwhelmed with happiness that God has blessed me with a baby girl that I almost cry. You can tell me I'm perpetuating gender norms all you want, but I happen to love being a woman, and I'm glad my daughter gets to experience all of those fun, girly things too.
I will also teach her to be tough and independent and to stand up for herself. But that's the beauty of being a girl: she can be all of those things, and still be a beautiful, feminine, princess at the same time.
I know I would have loved a little boy so much, and I hope I have one someday. But I feel so blessed that God picked me to be a girl mom, too.