I am extremely tired of being tired. I feel like I am just about at my limit. Work always exhausts me. On top of work, I've been very busy with friends and fun things, which I'm certainly not complaining about! But even beyond that, I've been writing the church blog, the campaign newsletters, and most recently started working on the church library committee again, trying to find a new online system for our books, and helping to plan the set-up of the library in the new building. I absolutely love being a part of all of these things, and I feel like I have finally found my "niche" in the church, so to speak. However, lately it has felt like a second part-time job. And I'm TIRED.
I've been trying lately to remain mellow and not get stressed out, but I can't help it. Being so busy is stressful. Today at work, I got pulled from my normal position to sub, and it was just crazy. By the end of the day, I was having annoying stomach pains, and I know those are all due to the stress I'm feeling. I got home from work, took off my heels, (WHY, oh why, did I wear heels today?!) and laid on the couch. I have not moved from this position since. Honestly, I am putting off making dinner, because after dinner I know I have a good 3 or 4 hours worth of working on the church newsletter in store.
I am obviously exhausted.
Which is why I absolutely cannot wait until Friday!! Friday is North Eastern Ohio Education Association Day, and that means that I don't have to work! An extra weekend day is sooo needed right now.
Part of me wants to take this as an opportunity to go shopping, clean the entire house, and make my first apple pie.
But I'm going to fight that. I'm going to make this a me day. I'm going to sleep in, take a hot bubble bath, and relax. I'm not going to bake anything. I'm going to catch up on all of my DVR'd shows. I'm going to READ. Oh, I can't wait to read! I've been struggling to finish the book I'm currently reading for well over a month. I just can't stay awake to read these days!
Luke is coming home from work early on Friday so we can go out and buy pumpkins and then carve them. To be honest, even that sounds like too much of a chore to my overwhelmed-self right now. But I'm vowing to make that my most difficult task of the day! And it's a fun one, so it's okay!
And after dinner when Luke goes to play basketball at the church with his friends, I'm going to put some comfortable sweat pants on, make myself a pumpkin spice latte, and settle in for a night of Netflix movies.
I don't know if I'll be able to stick to this, because normally when I have a day off, I get lots of ideas and motivation to do all kinds of projects. But I will save all of my creative projects for Saturday. Friday is my day, and I am not doing anything that requires any amount of effort! (Aside from the pumpkin-carving, that is).
I think I need this. Life has burnt me out lately, and I need a day to be rejuvenated! I can't wait.
There are less than 24 hours until I am done with work for the week, and then I can begin my little retreat. My to-do list between now and then consists of: making dinner, finishing the newsletter, washing dishes, cleaning the house, surviving 7 hours of craziness at work which includes 8 small group sessions, one playground duty, and once lunch duty. But when the announcements come on at 2:30 tomorrow afternoon, I am going to be singing The Hallelujah Chorus. The other day I wrote about how I wish life had a pause button...well this is as close to that as I'm going to get, and I'm looking forward to it!!
It's soo needed right now. Praise God for blessings like 3-day weekends!