Last night my mom called. As I wrote on Tuesday, I'm just going through a really stressful time right now, and I don't handle stress well. I hadn't talked to anyone about the way I was feeling. I was just embarrassed to be feeling so fragile, and embarrassed that I had brought a lot of this upon myself. But last night I just spilled everything to my mom through tears over the phone. It felt so good to tell someone else about everything. Of course she encouraged me and made me feel so much better. The problems aren't solved (and some of them are so far from my control, I don't know why I let myself worry about them) but I'm feeling a much deeper peace about everything.
Later last night, Luke revealed that he is going through some hard times at work too, which I had no idea about. He doesn't let much bother him, so I was surprised. But for some reason it felt good to talk to each other about what we're going through..we sort of bonded over it in some weird way. Anyway, it brought about even more peace.
And the this morning I looked up Psalm 91 because this chapter always brings me comfort when I'm worried or scared about anything. Verses 10 - 12 say, "He will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift up their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone." Why should I be worried when God has it all taken care of? I may not know where I'll be or what I'll be doing next fall (which is the root of alllll this stress) but God does, and He has it all planned out.
If you're struggling with fear or worry, you should check out Psalm 91. Trust me, it's been a great comfort to me this morning!
Praise God for His peace, even when things are still so unsure.