Tuesday, May 26, 2009


Hope none of this is TMI for anyone

Confession: I've had babies on the brain lately. Out of nowhere, and I don't know why.

Confession: When I was taking an antibiotic for my tooth infection, I DID find the label on the bottle that said it may stop the birth control pill from working. However, I found it a day or two late.

Confession: I looked up "early signs of pregnancy" on google last night, because there is a hope deep inside of me that I am pregnant, even though Luke and I haven't been trying.

Confession: I FEEL pregnant. Bloated, weird appetite, higher body temp. than normal. But I'm sure that's just wishful thinking.

Confession: I cried last night, because I'm pretty sure I'm probably NOT pregnant, but my hopes are already up.

Confession: I nonchalantly asked Luke if he'd be really upset if I got pregnant before we felt like we were ready. He shrugged and acted like he'd be okay with it, because it would be God's plan. That made me feel good.

All this to say, I don't know what's up with me. I know I'm not ready for a baby, but all of a sudden I have the strongest desire for one. Is this just part of being a woman? Does anyone else go through this sometimes?

I guess we will see tomorrow. Because that is supposed to be the start of my time of the month. I'm not sure why I just feel like I'm pregnant, but I'm pretty sure it's just wishful thinking. I wish this desire would just go away until Luke feels like he is ready!

Thanks for listening to my rant. Have a nice day :-)


  1. Girl, I hear ya!! I feel that way SO many months. I will be praying for you!! It will be so exciting if you are and if you aren't, at least the seed has been planted and you and Luke can start to pray and plan sooner than you had anticipated. Regardless, I'll be praying His will be done!

  2. I know the feeling, Friend. And I'm totally nervous about my wisdom tooth extraction this Friday, not because of the pain, but because I'll have to take those blasted antibiotics. Part of me would be kind of excited if we accidentally got pregnant from taking those darn antibiotics, but another part of me is completely terrified of the idea! I wish I didn't have to take them, because then you have a chance of getting pregnant for the entire next cycle, and I am totally naive about "additional methods of birth control". Noooo! I'm pretty attached to my pill, and would prefer not to use anything else, thank you. Anyway, all that to let you know that I will soon be facing the same antibiotic-induced situation, and I know it could be exciting and terrifying!

  3. haha, I cracked up because I know exactly what yo are going through. I had a very similar moment about two weeks ago (and by moment, I mean a week long incident.) I think it's just part of being a woman, the natural desire to mother that God gave us! Good think Luke recognizes it would be God's plan!

  4. I don't remember how I stumbled across your blog, but now that I have, I'm going to comment. YES, I know the feeling! My husband & I have been married seven months and are definitely not ready for kids...although we know that ultimately lies in God's hands. However, at one point where my pills had quit working and we were afraid that I might be pregnant, something came over me and I actually cried when I took the test and it was negative. As scared as it was that it might be positive, a part of me wanted to have that life inside me...a life created with my husband.
    I honestly think it's just part of how God created us as women, to love and nurture. And I think it's part of us learning to trust Him...because in the end, life is in His hands anyway.

    Anyway, that's my two cents! Hang in there!

  5. Oh my! This was totally me a couple months ago! And every time I thought maybe, just maybe, I was, even though we weren't trying, I'd get upset when I wasn't.

    I still haven't shook the desire for a little one, though. Who knows?

    Just know you are not alone!


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